Cry of Defeat

By married 2Christ

The pain is increasing more n more
my heart is turning blue n blue
unable to breath
struggling to move
on the verge of falling
my hands n legs too numb
to help myself
inside im breaking
but i smile outside
longing for someone
to understand what’s behind my smile
i smile
but my eyes cry for help
im struggling to swim through
the shore of success
i smile and i say im ok
but i turn around
breaking down
the pain waits with the light
and comes out in the dark
to scream at me
sometimes i want to kill myself away slowly
over things that melted my heart
life’s laughing at me
at my hardwork n struggle
all seems useless n in vain
the tears i’ve shed
the dreams i dreamt
i lie helpless being
trapped by fools
watching the things
that broke the twig of my life

but there is
an inch of hope
that these thorns
will make the rose
look more beautiful
n add colour to my bleak sky